He was the darkest boy
in my class
I was the fairest girl;
He was a genius,
I was just better
than clumsy;
Yet I had a crush on him
A crush that would melt my heart
at his sight
My eyes on the board
My focus on the person
sitting behind me
He had a habit
to stretch his hand
and hold the desk
with his pink palms
All I wanted to do
was just lean back
slowly yet smoothly
to rub his fingers
and he would pull them back
in a jiffy
I would just wait
to turn and say sorry
I knew well
All I would get
was a grumpy look!
One fine morning,
I was early to school
only to find
his school bag open
With a pounding heart
I take that note book
of the half read poem
Even before I finished it
He appears like a gin
In time to snatch it
And warn me
not to touch it again
Today,
When I speak to him
after nineteen years;
I hear him say my name
on the phone
He still manages
to flutter butterflies
in my heart!!
P.S: Does your first crush still do that to you?
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Aaawww ...so sweet ! I do remember he used to resemble Aamir Khan who was my heartthrob at that moment . Also he was my badminton and carrom partner where we kids used to play . Never spoke to him all these years ...but sometimes I wonder how it would be :)
ReplyDeleteOffo akkaa...cool kadaa..I could imagine you blushing while typing this comment :)okasari vetiki pattukuni matladandi..then tell me :P
DeleteBtw, Aamir Khan is still my heartthrob..basic ga nenu teenage lo aagipoyanu..LOL
So u r still in touch with him??
ReplyDeleteNo I outgrew my crush long back, does nothing to me :D
Bhagya...ahhahaa...no re..not in touch with him all these years. He was a pet for one of our teachers and she asked me if I could get his number and would like to talk to him. You know how I found my darling. Same way, with some efforts, could get his number..btw, that doesn't do anything to me :P It's just at that moment I felt like that...LOL
DeleteAwwwwww!! That's so very sweet!! :)
ReplyDeleteHe was the son of my father's boss... we stayed in the same official colony and I would see him frequently at the club where he would come to play lawn tennis and I to the library, at the bus stop and sometimes at parties... and then we grew up and met many years later online on Orkut. By that time he had transformed himself into a fat and ugly pig :P He sent a friend request, I accepted it and then he took me off his friend list... Few years later, he sent me request on FB, I blocked him! :D
Couldn't help laughing, reading your comment Shilpa. Hehehe...You did a good thing :P. I know those days. All we would expect was a look or a smile and just for the sake of it, would keep on lingering about that for so long.. :)
DeleteThat was such a beautiful poetic memory of the first crush, Latha:) A lovely read!!
ReplyDeleteThank you Rahul sir :)I remember only those two things..heheh
DeleteOh Wow ! what a romantic poem!! How cruel of him to not to allow you to touch even his bag.
ReplyDeleteLOL..Usha ji, you should see my face that morning!! My best friend who didn't know telugu asked me again and again what he said and would tease me by that line for years to come :)
Deletemost of first crushes are out of attraction towards physical beauty,fame and money.once we start to get along with the person by dating,most of times you lose interest coz what keeps people together is way of thinking.attraction won't last long and person gets bored when there is difference in character.
ReplyDeletei never had crush coz i knew it won't last long once we start speaking.its not about pessimism but momentary instincts don't last.
maa class lo oka kate winslet lanti ammayi undedi,tanakanna ekkuva marks vastheney natho vachhi matladataniki try chesedhi,kani nenu thanatho eppudu matladaledu.i have a question for you.
did ya ever find same magnitude of love between two partners?
Welcome here and thank you for the comment. Honestly, in that age, we never cared for looks, money or anything else. He was a brainy kid who wrote very good poetry. That was all why I was attracted to him.
DeleteComing to your question, first crushes are mostly never true loves. So, the magnitude of love between two partners cannot be compared to that. If there is true love between two partners, just a random smile from one of them should make butterflies flutter in your heart irrespective of the time you have been married or been together for!!
hey,that was cool.you know what true love is.after long time i found certain sensible answer from a lady.
DeleteGlad it made sense to you :)
DeleteWonderful to have butterflies still fluttering in your heart even after a gap of 2 decades...must be a great feeling!!!!First crush !!!!I never had one!!!I know guys having crush on me though!!!:)
ReplyDeleteAkkaaa...LOL..you should ask the guys if the crush still continues..hahaha..yes, some moments in life are remembered forever :) I never expected such a thing when I made a call, I was a little nervous though ;)
Deletehe he ,,,just was going thru' ur blog n saw ur reply...yeah one guy who had crush on me still is in touch with...(it's a SECRET ;) )...and he still has the same feeling!!!!!
DeleteNice reading about your first crush.
ReplyDeleteI had a crush on my college professor, if it had been followed through, I might have even ended up marrying him. He was really very handsome, the Mills & Boons type of guy, tall, dark, blah, blah.
Good thing it never happened for I would have ended up marrying a man 19 years older than me.
At that time and that age I was pretty serious about him and felt that he was made for me and I was made for him. Luckily he got married as soon as he felt something insane was brewing in my mind. And he was not even teaching us, for he belonged to the commerce department.
It is often difficult to get over first crush, but as years went by, his thoughts also slipped away from my mind, and I am always thankful to God that He never let it happen.
Oh Gawwdd...Rama, looks like I spilled a can of first crushes here..:P It is interesting to read your story too. :) I know, imagine marrying a guy 19 yr older..ufff..don't even think of it.whatever happens, happens for our very best only :) We had a computer instructor in 9th std. KK..me and my best friend would drool over him...lol..
DeleteWow! That was sweet, Frankly I dont remember anything as a first crush!! Hmm! Strange!
ReplyDeleteYou won't Jaish. Because you are the good girl who always studied well and made it to BITS, unlike me :P Just kidding..
DeleteNice poem that brought a smile.
ReplyDeleteButterflies flutter in stomach and bees sting in heart normally
Well said, KP Sir. :)Thank you!!
Deleteaww!! That is really sweet! Yes, I remember my first crush well... he used to come to the same tuition class in Class 11. I don't feel anything for him now though! Just a nice memory!
ReplyDeleteExactly!! It's nothing but a sweet memory, Roshni. Just that speaking to him after like 2 decades, brought some smiles on my face..I am sure if I talk again, I won't feel anything of that sort.. :)
DeleteAwww! oh yes, no one can forget the first crush. Such a sweet memory.. how was it talking to him after so long?
ReplyDeleteJas, trust me. I was thinking to mail you today as I had not seen you in a while. Hope all is well.
DeleteYes, first crushes always hold a special place :) It was good. He had a nice friendly tone. He never knew that I had a crush. So, we are just old classmates now :)
I was too caught up with lots of things. I hope it was just a phase and I am back to writing :)
DeleteBelieve me when I say he knew about your crush. We all do. It is instinctive :)
Haaa a very good one indeed Latha. I remember my classmate in school ddays, he was a very funny guy. After school I never was in touch with him, always wondered how he will be and what is he doing. Recently saw him on Facebook. SOmehow once I came to real world and was him lost all the interest and thoe butterflies. I guess the old memories were only the good ones :).
ReplyDeletehahaha...True, Haritha. Btw, I haven't seen this guy yet. I know the butterflies will fly away when I see or meet him for sure..yep..these are just some good sweet memories.
DeleteHaha nice confession.
ReplyDelete:-) Thank you!!
DeleteOh so sweet :). I don't even remember who my first crush was! :)
ReplyDeleteHahaha...Thanks dear.
DeleteMy first crush was a girl in class 2. I proposed to her and she refused. :(
ReplyDeleteOMG Amit..2nd class..I don't even remember if I ever studied 2nd class :D
Deletenopes it does not!!!...cant remember my first crush actually!!
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