In my initial days of blogging, I have seen her name on one of the blogs I read. I wanted to check her blog. But every time, I ended up on her Gravatar profile. After much digging on FB and elsewhere, I landed upon her blog. I read all her poems at one go. And...we connected. Sridevi is one of those writers who write only when her heart tells her to and not because she has to. She describes life's simple experiences and emotions, pleasures and pains in the most subtle manner. If there is one blogger who I want to express my feelings like her, that would be her. She does a lot of book reviews too. If I am not exaggerating, you won't find a person as sweet as her to not say no to anything or hurt anyone knowingly or unknowingly. For once, I didn't have to request her for a guest post. I had to demand and grab it. Here it is for you all:
‘Ho mere husn de kone... kone kone di
‘Ho mere husn de kone... kone kone di
Ho kone kone di..
Ho Baby doll main sone di
Ho Baby doll main sone di
Ho Baby doll main sone di
Ho Baby doll main sone di’
The raunchy
number from “Ragini MMS” reached my ears from across the Ganesha Pandal . Since
the last few days, the song had been playing nonstop so much so that now it had
become an integral part of the air I breathed and the blood that ran in my
veins. I quickened my step. I wanted to
complete at least twenty rounds of the terrace before the song ended. But by
the time I completed my tenth round, devotion changed tracks. Baby Doll stopped
and the priest began his incantations. My doubts resurfaced. Was it the same pandal?
As I completed my twelfth round the answer came to me loud and clear.
No they were from two different
pandals- from two different directions. But the chaos
and cacophony co-existed happily- like two noisy classrooms with no signs of
dissonance. As I walked, I pictured the two Ganeshas inside their respective pandals-
their benevolence spilling, their ears ringing with notes of prayer and baby
doll, their gaze unwavering on the devotees in front of them- some joining
their palms together, yet others gyrating wildly to Bollywood numbers.
I resumed my
thirteenth round. The devotion came un-filtered now from two different
directions though
‘Yeh
Duniya..yeh Duniya pittal Di’
‘Shuklam
Bharadaram’
‘Yeh
Duniya Pittal Di’
‘Amma
take some sacred water into your hands’
Ho Baby doll main sone
di
Amma
will you offer the flowers to the God
‘Ho Baby doll main
sone di’
After my
twentieth round, I was tired. The prayers and Baby doll were drowned by the
loud bursting of crackers which came from some third pandal. J in a small voice
complained that he was unable to concentrate on his homework.
Bolting the
doors and windows from inside, I remembered the Ganesha Pujas of my childhood. How
the compulsive fasting from morning made us go all hungry and weak. The hot
steaming modaks and the whole house wafting with the aroma of ghee and
jaggery did nothing to help.
We did not want
to worship.
We just wanted
to gorge- on the pile of tamrind rice sprinkled liberally with fried peanuts
and the halwa shaped into perfect little spheres. And we wanted to do it
before Ganesha. But we couldn’t- not before the Puja was over and not
before we listened entirely to the tale which my father would tell us. The tale
had another backstory! The tale guaranteed good luck to both the listener and
teller. Had it been told to us at some other time, probably we would have
enjoyed it; probably asked questions too. But you don’t tell stories to a child
with hunger pangs. Not even if there was a ton of good luck attached to it! So
we just nodded, salivating one eye on the Prasadams and the other on the
idol.
I came back to
the present. Opening the doors and windows, I realized it was nearing midnight.
The songs and crackers had stopped, but one of the organizers was giving a
speech. I bolted back the doors and windows. Baby Doll was better.
Once more, I thought back of all the Ganesha tales my father used to tell us; How the kings regained their kingdoms after worshiping this rolly polly God, how communication gaps were bridged and friendships were re-kindled. Yes! Ganesha - the remover of obstacles and the bringer of good fortunes symbolized successful life and living.
Once more, I thought back of all the Ganesha tales my father used to tell us; How the kings regained their kingdoms after worshiping this rolly polly God, how communication gaps were bridged and friendships were re-kindled. Yes! Ganesha - the remover of obstacles and the bringer of good fortunes symbolized successful life and living.
Outside, the
organizer had finally concluded his speech and as I threw open the doors and
windows, I realized the biggest obstacles did not always come in
the form of scheming, plotting relatives. More often they came from deep
within. Like an auditorium in an eternal state of noise; the discordant notes
of anger, jealousy, lassitude and vindictiveness hitting against each other to
form a fractured, incomplete song.
I went to the
balcony. The moonlight shone upon the withered petals and the burnt away
crackers. The streets were empty. The music also stopped. I looked at the now empty pandal.
‘So how does
your obstacle look to you?’, whispered a voice to me, ‘ The size of a mountain,
hill or hillock..’
‘Nah...’, I
replied, ‘It is like a smooth round pebble…with the colors of the sea.’
The voice
laughed and disappeared into the clouds above and all that remained was the distant
hurtling of a train along the tracks. I inhaled deeply and returned to my world
of sleep and dreams; seas and colorful pebbles.
© :Sridevi Datta




