I take my little one
to the play area
near the mail boxes
She jumps with joy
shouts, yayyy!!!
She wants to go
on the yellow slide
I nod my head
in approval
She says, amma
I get a current chock!!
I smile in amusement
I let her go by herself
There stood a couple of moms
watching their kids play
They ask if I am new here?
I smile and say no
Disinterest draws on me
Resigning myself
I sit on the bench
watching her play
When I look at them
something takes me
down the memory lane
To the days when
I was new on this land
I would take my son
to the pool area
to make new friends
for him and me
To those innocent evenings
looking forward
to meet people,
exchange tales..
Gawking at Gerbers
debating on the best diapers
Now I seldom have
an iota of interest
To meet new moms
make new friends
anymore, with anyone
What has changed?
I ask myself
Is it me? Is it they?
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Even i am wondering why you have changed thus.Is it because then you were new there & now you are well entrenched?
ReplyDeleteThat could be one of the reasons, aunty. Others are, these days I feel I am being used and just left..so, what's the point in making new friends and new people anyway? What for?
DeleteNo doubt such feelings are very demoralizing,but we come across some genuine friends too.
DeleteYes. I still believe in it. Along with the use and throw ones, I still meet like minded people and thank god for sending them across. :)
DeleteVery cute poem,Latha. Change is the law of nature.As we grow, the things that fascinated us dont impress us at all.
ReplyDeleteSo right Usha ji. In the beginning, everything is new..once we get used to it, it becomes boring and old.
DeleteWow but why not interested in making friends? There is so much to share with mommy friends :).
ReplyDeleteNah re..not any more..esp with moms who have younger kids. I feel I am a veteran now. Passed that phase :P Too much bhaav huh? seriously. Because every time, people call me for advice on this and that and now I am like, what is there to talk to them anymore anyway? But not the same with moms who have kids of Rushi's age...for ex: you ;) or friends whose kids are older to Rushi..even them, not all of them interest me...
DeleteI am very poor at small talk too. It bores me to death :).
Deletehmmm :D change is the only constant thing isnt it :D FIF :D love the game of time dont worry :D nothing is a problem :) u will get back to your self :D
ReplyDeleteNice lines
Thanks for those ever cheering words, Ramya :)Yeah, it's not a problem at all..but I was just thinking...true..change is the only constant thing...:)
DeleteWhat a fab subject for a poem, Latha!! It is part of growing up and moving on, I guess. Some of the old things that gave us so much pleasure and happiness no longer interest us! Happens to all of us!
ReplyDeleteTrue Shilpa. Some things entice us and now they don't carry any value or meaning..
DeleteYou have echoed my thoughts here. Sometimes it happens. Guess it's just a phase.
ReplyDeleteDon't know Alka. I have been in this phase for quite sometime. So, not sure if it's just a phase.
DeleteIt is you and none else!!
ReplyDelete:)
DeleteI guess changing times, sometimes we feel used, sometimes we cannot trust....Others have changed and so have we
ReplyDeleteI agree Bhagya...I think I grew out of that shell of newness and wantedness...
Deletewell the same here too. I have nothing in common with moms who have very small kids, and the moms who are my age seems to have aged too fast. Anyway I have no problem being on my own, in fact I like it.
ReplyDeleteIt is a lovely poem, right from the heart
Exactly..I feel the same too...I feel I think differently from many and won't suit to be with them...and what they talk don't interest me anymore...so, it is me who has changed :)
DeleteThings chnage with time and change is the only permanance, Latha:)
ReplyDeleteTrue sir, but it's not just one change..many changes that changed with time..:)
DeleteMaybe you're tired of superficial talk? That happens. With age, you would rather focus your energies on meaningful activities!
ReplyDeleteYou got it, Roshni. So fed up with that...every where...play areas..birthday parties..after school, basket ball games, swim classes..
DeleteI agree with Roshni. may be small talk no longer interests you and it is perfectly ok. Happens to all. It feels, why to go on random beat around the bushes talk.
ReplyDeleteIt's just not small talk alone, Jas...different things at different places too..even when I go to parties, I feel the same..ya, happens to all
DeleteMay be that now you have enough friends or you have little time to invest..
ReplyDeleteI have enough friends, but that shouldn't stop me from making new friends right? I have little time, but I am the one who try to cater time for everything...some dis interest, Renu...something that doesn't want me to go and make that talk..
DeleteSissy... i know you wouldnt change for anything... may be this is just a phase in life... you are a super woman and know can handle things just like that...
ReplyDelete:) Thanks for your confidence in me, honey. I changed...a lot means a lot..still I am the same in many things..manam complicated, neeku telusu kada :)
DeleteAcceptance of the fact that solitude is not a bad thing?
ReplyDeleteSometimes, your comments make me understand myself so better..thank you for reading :)
DeleteCongratulations! You don't like small talks anymore. I die a thousand death when I have to make small talks with a stranger.
ReplyDeleteI was fine before...now a days, I just can't take it anymore..that never ending pretentious smile on the face...yeeek...
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