April 28, 2013

What has changed?

I take my little one
to the play area
near the mail boxes

She jumps with joy
shouts, yayyy!!!

She wants to go
on the yellow slide
I nod my head
in approval

She says, amma
I get a current chock!!

I smile in amusement
I let her go by herself

There stood a couple of moms
watching their kids play
They ask if I am new here?
I smile and say no

Disinterest draws on me
Resigning myself
I sit on the bench
watching her play

When I look at them
something takes me
down the memory lane

To the days when
I was new on this land
I would take my son
to the pool area
to make new friends
for him and me

To those innocent evenings
looking forward
to meet people, 
exchange tales..

Gawking at Gerbers
debating on the best diapers

Now I seldom have
an iota of interest
To meet new moms
make new friends
anymore, with anyone

What has changed?
I ask myself
Is it me? Is it they?

35 comments:

  1. Even i am wondering why you have changed thus.Is it because then you were new there & now you are well entrenched?

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    1. That could be one of the reasons, aunty. Others are, these days I feel I am being used and just left..so, what's the point in making new friends and new people anyway? What for?

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    2. No doubt such feelings are very demoralizing,but we come across some genuine friends too.

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    3. Yes. I still believe in it. Along with the use and throw ones, I still meet like minded people and thank god for sending them across. :)

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  2. Very cute poem,Latha. Change is the law of nature.As we grow, the things that fascinated us dont impress us at all.

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    1. So right Usha ji. In the beginning, everything is new..once we get used to it, it becomes boring and old.

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  3. Wow but why not interested in making friends? There is so much to share with mommy friends :).

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    1. Nah re..not any more..esp with moms who have younger kids. I feel I am a veteran now. Passed that phase :P Too much bhaav huh? seriously. Because every time, people call me for advice on this and that and now I am like, what is there to talk to them anymore anyway? But not the same with moms who have kids of Rushi's age...for ex: you ;) or friends whose kids are older to Rushi..even them, not all of them interest me...

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    2. I am very poor at small talk too. It bores me to death :).

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  4. hmmm :D change is the only constant thing isnt it :D FIF :D love the game of time dont worry :D nothing is a problem :) u will get back to your self :D
    Nice lines

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    1. Thanks for those ever cheering words, Ramya :)Yeah, it's not a problem at all..but I was just thinking...true..change is the only constant thing...:)

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  5. What a fab subject for a poem, Latha!! It is part of growing up and moving on, I guess. Some of the old things that gave us so much pleasure and happiness no longer interest us! Happens to all of us!

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    1. True Shilpa. Some things entice us and now they don't carry any value or meaning..

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  6. You have echoed my thoughts here. Sometimes it happens. Guess it's just a phase.

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    1. Don't know Alka. I have been in this phase for quite sometime. So, not sure if it's just a phase.

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  7. I guess changing times, sometimes we feel used, sometimes we cannot trust....Others have changed and so have we

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    1. I agree Bhagya...I think I grew out of that shell of newness and wantedness...

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  8. well the same here too. I have nothing in common with moms who have very small kids, and the moms who are my age seems to have aged too fast. Anyway I have no problem being on my own, in fact I like it.
    It is a lovely poem, right from the heart

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    1. Exactly..I feel the same too...I feel I think differently from many and won't suit to be with them...and what they talk don't interest me anymore...so, it is me who has changed :)

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  9. Things chnage with time and change is the only permanance, Latha:)

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    1. True sir, but it's not just one change..many changes that changed with time..:)

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  10. Maybe you're tired of superficial talk? That happens. With age, you would rather focus your energies on meaningful activities!

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    1. You got it, Roshni. So fed up with that...every where...play areas..birthday parties..after school, basket ball games, swim classes..

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  11. I agree with Roshni. may be small talk no longer interests you and it is perfectly ok. Happens to all. It feels, why to go on random beat around the bushes talk.

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    1. It's just not small talk alone, Jas...different things at different places too..even when I go to parties, I feel the same..ya, happens to all

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  12. May be that now you have enough friends or you have little time to invest..

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    1. I have enough friends, but that shouldn't stop me from making new friends right? I have little time, but I am the one who try to cater time for everything...some dis interest, Renu...something that doesn't want me to go and make that talk..

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  13. Sissy... i know you wouldnt change for anything... may be this is just a phase in life... you are a super woman and know can handle things just like that...

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    1. :) Thanks for your confidence in me, honey. I changed...a lot means a lot..still I am the same in many things..manam complicated, neeku telusu kada :)

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  14. Acceptance of the fact that solitude is not a bad thing?

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    1. Sometimes, your comments make me understand myself so better..thank you for reading :)

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  15. Congratulations! You don't like small talks anymore. I die a thousand death when I have to make small talks with a stranger.

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    1. I was fine before...now a days, I just can't take it anymore..that never ending pretentious smile on the face...yeeek...

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